"Sometimes I Wish Someone Out There Will Find Me..."

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 18:58:53 GMT

ok guys, i have got a new LJ...its sherbertlemon_

ok well thats it!

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 14:34:01 GMT

wow i have mised out on a lot this vacation cuz all i have done is skied!! i hvan't seen any of my friends yet ugh! ok yes i did, alise heidi and laura and omg that was fun!!! but still....hey at least i got to ski with that cutie hehe ;-) who would give that up? lol...ok now i am not skiing til sunday so i can do stuff so let em kno please cuz i will die of boredum...

skiing with the best christmas present ever!

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 21:56:24 GMT

ok well today was awesome!!!! i went skiing at sunapee with a bunch of peopel i havn't skied with in ages or ever. here is the low down...i went with kristen(my moms friend's daugter) and her husband brian, beth(my moms friends other daughter..sis to kriten) and her husband tony, tony's younger bro justin and there friend webber. ok well over the summer beth adn tony got married in penn state adn my mom and i went to the wedding cuz my mom was the photographer and i was her little helper lol. well see tonys bro justin is 18...and wicked cute! lol. and i talked to him alot at the wedding and i danced with him at the reception and all and it was cool. but see the problem is he lives in penn state! ugh. well he came up to new hampshire yesterday to ski here with his bro tony and beth and to see everyone adn we went there to see everyone yesterday and he told me they were skiing at sunapee today, and told me i should come. and umm im not stupid i wasnt going to say no to that...so i was like sure that would be great! lol. so iwent skiing today with him adn all of the other peopel i mentioned it i ahd the best time every! i said bye to him adn all and i have no idea when i will see him again but i think i might over april vacation cuz he said his finals were the week before so i am hoping i will see him then. but if not i am sure i will over the summer. he will either come down here or we might go to penn state..i mena why not? lol..but damn is he cute.*

*thats why over the summer i was like why to all the good ones live in different states! but i got to ski with him! hehe

a survey i stole from niki who stole from sam...

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 00:14:07 GMT

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. California, so i can ski AND go to the beach at the same time ya!
2. London
3. Italy

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Katelyn
2. Crosby
3. Kate

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Kayakinggurl6
2. skiracer61088
3. and now, rossigurl06

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. honest
2. friendly
3. kind

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. im WAY too shy
2. i cant get myself to talk to the people i am interested in
3. no outgoing enough

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. english
2. irish
3. native american

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. rejection
2. forgetting to do something
3. loosing my friends and family

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. my friends
2. my family
3. my music

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. comp sweatshirt
2. sweatpants
3. fleece socks

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE BANDS OR ARTISTS:
1. U2
2. Scissor Sisters
3. Pete Yorn

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Boulevard of Broken Dreams
2. City of Blinding Lights
3. Deja Vu All Over Again

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. keep my grades up
2. meet/find someone awseom and who will make me so happy ;-)
3. actully doing the things i say i will

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. trust
2. romance
3. friendship, love with that tho

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE(bonus if you can guess the lie):
1. im obsessed with U2
2. i am a figure skater
3. i have brown hair

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. smile
2. sense of humor, they have to make me laugh
3. kindness and sweetness

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN’T DO:
1. chemistry, ugh...
2. confront anyone i am interested in
3. be outgoing

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. figure skating
2. skiing
3. kayaking

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. hang out with my friends
2. go see oceans 12
3. ski

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING:
1. nursing
2. physical theropist
3. ....

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. fall in love
2. have a family
3. accomplish somthing great

christmas

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 23:14:15 GMT

i had an awesome christmas! i got some really cool stuff but most importantly, i got to hang out with my family. For the last three or four years i wake up in the morning and open up presents with my mom, dad and brother. then we would go to mt sunapee to go skiing with my grandfather and three uncles on my moms side. after that we went to a christmas party at night on my dad's side where we play games and have a yankee swap. well i wanted to do it more like we use to when i was younger. so i told my mom we needed to have a christmas breakfast with her dad adn her three brothers like we use to. so we had them come over in the morning adn we ate breakfast then we all opened christmas presents TOGETHER. then we went skiing with them as usual. i just wanted to do the things we use to with my family. it seems that becuase my brother and i are getting older, we spend less time with them adn they spend less time with us and sort of ovoid it too. i think they thought it didnt matter to us anymore but actully it does. well it does to me anyway. i was starting to think they only came to see their grandmother who lived with us unyil she passed away two years ago and they knew if they didnt she would complain that they never came to see her. but i was so happy this year to have the normal christmas we usually have and i got to go skiing with all of them on christmas and today!

i hope everyone had a great christmas and had a good time with their families.

who?

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 20:38:19 GMT

ok who got a 90 on my quiz i have in my profile...u thought my favorite band was 3 doors down...and u wrote ur name as ---- ugh i wanna kno it will bug me lol

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 16:31:59 GMT

move on

Well I been thinking Tbout the future
But I'm too young to pretend
It's such a waste to always look behind you
Should be lookin' straight ahead

Yeah, I'm gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah, it's hard
If you had've only seen

10.34: Flinders Street Station
I'm lookin' down the tracks
Uniformed man askin' am I paid up
Why would I wanna be that?

Yeah gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah it's hard
If you had have only seen
Take control
Don't be afraid of me

'Cause every once in a while
You think about if your gonna get yourself together
You should be happy just to be alive
And just because you just don't feel like comin' home
Don't mean that you'll never arrive

Yeah I'm gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah it's hard
If you had have only seen
Take control
Don't be afraid of me

Well I been thinking Tbout the future
But I'm too young to pretend
It's such a waste to always look behind you
Should be lookin' straight ahead

Yeah, I'm gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah, it's hard
If you had've only seen

10.34: Flinders Street Station
I'm lookin' down the tracks
Uniformed man askin' am I paid up
Why would I wanna be that?

Yeah gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah it's hard
If you had have only seen
Take control
Don't be afraid of me

'Cause every once in a while
You think about if your gonna get yourself together
You should be happy just to be alive
And just because you just don't feel like comin' home
Don't mean that you'll never arrive

Yeah I'm gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah it's hard
If you had have only seen
Take control
Don't be afraid of me

relaxing...

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 02:51:04 GMT

well im sittting here listening to love songs and drinking vanilla chai in my mug from erin and niki(i love u guys so so much its perfect...peter pan baby!! yes i LOVE peter pan!!!) it feels great relaxing and knowing im not going to school tomorrow...instead im going skiing with my uncles who rock my socks! lol...can u say need for speed???? lol...

ah feels good...

leaving everything thats worring me behind...

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 01:50:00 GMT

i give up on life!

and i should have gone to the basketball game ugh!!! w/e just my luck...alise why do i have such bad luck?? AHH I GIVE UP ON EVERYTHING!!!!

someone please shoot me!

SNOW!!!

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 21:25:41 GMT

IT SNOWED!!!!!!!!! i am so excited u know what this means.....SLEDDING!!! haha and skiing of course duh everyone knows i live for this lol. and then going out and making snowmen adn having snowball fights adn snow angels and just being out there with this beautiful white stuff everywhere and then going inside and drinking vanilla chai hehe...man do i love that stuff but i drink it even when its not snowing hehe....

Take my quiz hehe

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 00:31:18 GMT

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

yay!!! lol go ahead take it hehe...

mothers?!?!

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 00:04:25 GMT

omgosh...guess what my mother just told me to do...make some cookies adn wrap them up adn put them on someones desk!!! ahhh...can u guess who's desk?? ;-) hehe...i kno u kno lol

....

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 22:36:39 GMT

If God Made You- Five For Fighting

Hey Kid... Your time has come to change
Though I need you more than I've needed anyone in any way tonight
Hey Kid... I know it won't be long
The Captain's calling...come to see you back where we belong

Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Hey Kid...Do wishes count at all
Can you give me a sign...give me anything I won't tell a soul you told
Hey Kid...Will you hold me when I sleep
Will you find me when the tide decides that I got to leave

Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in your eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this my love

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in your eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you... he's in love with me...

ugh

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 21:12:08 GMT

man im still sick! i am always sick at xmas so i hope this goes away for xmas that would be really nice...but with my luck it wont. i seem to have bad luck if u havn't noticed...never good luck. but w/e. life goes on. well i have been working on my comic book for english all day..well ok no not all day but w/e. i watch figure skating...johnny weir didnt do so hot but yeah it happens, but OMG his hair is freaken long now its wicked ugly and so was his music i hated it...and his costume..so yeah he didnt deserve to win. my favorite skater won tho! yay..well my favorite male skater...EVGENY PLUSHENKO! he is for russia not the U.S tho but w/e he is an awesome skater and he did a magnifisent job and he def deserved to win. he skated to "The Godfather" yay! sweetness! then idk who won from the ladies cuz all i wanted to do was watch my all time favorite skater in the whole world who personally i think deserves to get gold at the olypics but still hasn't yet :-( michelle kwan which most of u prolly already knew that from my LJ icon or just because u kno me very well. i was so tired i just wanted to watch her skate..and not watch sasha cohen cuz i dont like her. as much as everyone else likes her and thinks she so great...well i dont. she is taking everything away from michelle kwan...ugh...just like Tara Lapinski did...ugh i didnt like her either! but w/e..i'll stop complaining about these skating things that some of u are like ya ok i dont get it but w/e.

i guess thats enough of me rambaling on and on and on about skating lol...

blah

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 02:29:09 GMT

man my life stinks sometimes....ugh!

well ok it doesnt stink...its just depressing...

...or is it that im always depressed???

idk...w/e...it just...well sucks!

my new years resolution: to find someone, it seems like i am always looking but never can find ugh...."sometimes i wish someone out there would find me..." - green day

oceans 12...

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 00:28:58 GMT

who wants to go see oceans 12 sunday afternoon at 4?? if not saturday night instead??? well let me kno...

XMAS PARTY!!

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 23:23:22 GMT

well an after xmas party haha...ok here is the scoop. i am gonna have a xmas party (or after xmas party w/e u want to call it) actully hows this and xmas/new years party thinger?? anyways it will be here at my house sometime over vaca at night. i am thinking wednesday?? and there will be a bonfire adn then we can hang out in our garage(dont worry its heated and there will be xmas music and hopefully xmas cookies adn more junk food adn if u want to bring some cool food go right ahead...we could always us more yummy stuff! haha. ok well thats the plan and then we can all have a goodtime and hang out...singing some xmas songs haha...ok jk well i kno i will be singing along but thats b/c i LOVE xmas!!! so ya anyways u are all invited and anyone who wants to come just let me adn please please do come that would be so awesome! SWEETNESS MAN! ok let me later!

kate:o)

im dieing...

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 23:51:58 GMT

i had ski team practice after school today and then i had skating...my legs KILL!!! oweeee...lol...and now im am off to doing my pilates and my strechs adn exercises for my knee...ooo fun!

sigh

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 23:59:27 GMT

Everytime i see you, all my worries go away. nothing matters when ur around. when u smile, i melt from the inside out. you make my world go round and i would give anything to be with you...

now THAT'S my anit-depressant!!! someday my dreams will come true...like a fairy tale...or am i only dreaming?

please let me kno...

guess what else i supposably need to do?!?!.....

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 23:51:18 GMT

take anti- depressants!

what a nice mother?!?

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 21:59:28 GMT

guess what my mother just told me i had to do???? loose 10 pounds! she was like u have to loose 10 pounds and i was like wow what??? she was like im not suggesting it i am making u...umm ok mom. then she was like not cuz u look bad but for skating...but then i started thinking that make sense. mom said that it would be good becuase it would take off pressure from my knee adn my knee would feel better and i would be able to get off the ice better...and actully i like this idea haha. so i guess i should go back to doing my pilates that i stopped doing cuz im dumb and then the days i dont skate or have ski practice i will go for a run...so ya thats my plan. do u like it haha?

last night...

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 16:37:04 GMT

thanks to everyone who came to my xmas skating show last night (erika, megan, bri, mike, alise, heidi, ben, niki, shea, fritz, meghan, erin, lori and chris). u guys made my day! i even think it made me feel better about myself...so now those jumps are gonna come back cuz i seem to have more confidence. THANKS GUYS!!!! i love u all! i had to much fun at wendy's afterwards. that was so funny when we were singing " I Will Survive" then the ppl who work there were like "umm guys can u stop singing cuz we are trying to take orders here..." then all of us like hide or faces adn niki was hilarious..."I feel slightly embarrassed...slightly" haha. that was great. and the guy picking up the chairs was laughing at us. lol. good times! and again thanks for coming guys...u made my day! i means alot to me...

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 00:52:01 GMT

well today was fun...NOT! idk i just dont really enjoy thrusday's(and tuesdays haha). i mean i hva ean hour and a half study which gets unbelievebly boring...then i have algebra 2 which sometimes make me fall asleep but at least i have those two freshman that sit behind me and erika who make me laugh cuz they can be so stupid and some reason i cant think of their names haha...then i have lovely history which i hate but we never do anything anyway...then chem! ugh i dont think i have ever hated a subject asa much as i hate chem...i have no idea why i took it ugh but w/e.

then i had skating after school which wasnt that great. ok well i skated for and hour and u would think i could do my program af ew times but NO...i put my tape in line at 4:20...and i never got to do it until 5:18!! ok thats sad...when i put it in line there we three ppl on front of me but when i went to go look...my tape was out of line! i love how that happens to me all the time. then i put it back in line adn stupid ppl in lessons kept cutting adn then it was my turn adn 5...i repeat FIVE lessons cut me! i was so pissed..i was like how am i suppose to fix my program if i never get to do it! ugh....ppl need to learn how the line system works adn coaches need to learn that u need to go every ohter one...lesson...not a lesson...lesson...not a lesson...etc...how hard is that i ask?? not very to me anyway and that makes it fair cuz everyone gets to go...omg i hated how the lesson ppl went 5 times and i went once and so did erika and natalie and liz and sam and alot more ppl ugh its so aggravating!!!

and if my skating and school problems aren't enough...my knees KILL!!! i hate this too...ugh. right now they hurt so so bad...and now sometime when i land my jumps it hurts so much. OMG yesterday when i landed one...i had this sharp pain in my knee and i was like "ahhhh" i thought i was gonna cry. man im falling apart...

and then i have more problems that most of u know what they are!! ugh...well tomorrow is my day! haha....YEAH RIGHT!! i kno thats what u were thinking of lol. but hey im trying to convince myself adn be like "GO FOR IT GIRL!!!" ya kno...we'll see what happens tomorrow...or what doesnt happen lol. idk its bugging me so much that i am like this, but i am...and it sucks so freaken much...and I HATE IT!! ya...that explains how i feel right now...

my life right now...

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 00:05:48 GMT

ok well i suggest that none of u guys come to my skating show friday because i suck right now!!! I cant do my axels or land my double salchows...i was hoping to have my double salchow for this show and axels...well i never thought i would have this stupid mental block again ugh! i hate this so much and it always takes me forever to get them back...argh!!! i hate this so freaken much!!!

akwardness...

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 23:45:46 GMT

ok well we got our xmas tree today yay!! i guess i am gonna have to start taking my allery meds cuz i always get sick when the tree is in the house...i think im alllergic haha...

i have been feeling so weird lately and i dont know why. i keep having mixed feelings about certain things and what i should do adn whats right and what isnt. i know kind of confusing...well it is...and i wish it wasn't adn that life could be easy. but then again if it was easy there would be no point in living right? idk...i feel like there is a peice missing in my life. i mean xmas is coming and it doesnt feel like xmas to me..,i wish it did. xmas is suppose to be happy and full of love. well mine isnt. i mean sure im happy and stuff...my family loves me but i still feel like i am missing something. i need to have some fun. well ok i am having fun, skating, ski team, my friends, hanging out at the movies and stuff on teh weekends...but idk. i need to find someone special...ya know what i mean. like everything seems like it would be so much better if i did...but im having a hard time with that. going thru school day after day and seeing everyone...it just makes me sad sometimes. but then again i cant go around feeling sorry for myself everyday...just sometimes its just hard to go thru a day of school. i dont know what else to say about it but basiclly all i am saying is i need a boyfriend......